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Previously
on Forgive Me.

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Coming in here, I thought
I would feel condemned.

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This is where you
come to get uncondemned.

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You got some girl knocked
up that he didn't even

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know well enough to know
that she was knocked up.

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♪ Our familia

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♪ Our familia

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♪ Our familia

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Did I wake you?

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I think so.

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I said forgive me
Father for I have sinned.

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It's been three days
since my last confession.

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I don't recognize you.

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Are you visiting?

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Yeah, I'm new to
the neighborhood.

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Welcome.

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Thank you.

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Where are you from?

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Uh, abouts around.

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Seems nice here.

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It is.

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The schools are both very good.

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Do you have children?

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- Uh, no.

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Are you married?

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Do you have any family here?

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No, I'm divorced.

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I moved here alone.

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It can be very hard
to meet new people.

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We have social events a
couple of times a month.

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We've got games night.

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Bingo?

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Yeah, pretty much.

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I don't know, I'm not
really the bingo type, Father.

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Does that feel strange,

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to be called Father?

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It feels strange to call
a young man, Father.

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No.

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I don't really think
of it that way.

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I don't see myself as a parent.

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And Father can mean
a lot of things.

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Well, what's on your mind?

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What should I call you?

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It's fine, you know.

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You don't have to
tell me your name.

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Smith.

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Mr. Smith?

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Just Smith.

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What did you
come in today for?

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What did you want to confess?

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Nothing.

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I've done nothing.

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Well good for you.

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No foul language?

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No I have not cursed
or taken the Lord's name

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in vain, no.

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That is very rare.

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What about thoughts?

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Well, what's, what's
your position on thoughts.

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Are thoughts a sin?

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Well, I was taught that
they are, some of them.

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Why don't you
discuss your thoughts

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if they're troubling you?

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I thought I could
move away from them.

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Is that why you
moved here because you

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wanted to get away
from your thoughts?

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From temptation, Father.

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From the temptation
to act on them.

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All right, look,
I can tell that this

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is very difficult for you.

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But there is no
sin that can't be--

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I'm not saying it's a sin.

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You get that?

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It's a thought.

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Who are you moving away from?

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Who?

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I mean, unless
your sin is gluttony,

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it usually involves
another person.

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The woman next door
to where I used to live.

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She's uh, she's bad news for me.

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She tempted you?

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She accused me.

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She read my thoughts.

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It used to get you
burned at the stake.

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Guess she didn't,
you know, she surmised.

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What was it that
she accused you of?

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Lusting.

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And?

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She was right?

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I mean, Smith, it's not,

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it's not out of the
ordinary, right?

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I mean for a man to be
attracted to a woman.

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You're a single man.

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I repented for that.

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I'm sorry, for which?

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The divorce.

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Why did you divorce?

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I guess she could
read my mind too.

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What are these bad thoughts?

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Mm.

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I think bad thoughts
all the time.

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All the time.

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Are you thinking bad
thoughts right now?

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Mm-hmm.

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Right now?

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Yeah.

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Tell me.

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Okay.

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Uh, I was picturing you

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on the ground with
my shoe on your neck

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holding you down.

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I had pee on you.

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That's just a flash.

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It's not just you.

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It's just stuff,
it's how I think.

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You have thoughts
of hurting people,

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sexual violence.

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Is it sexual?

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Peeing on me?

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Yeah, is that sexual?

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Is it not?

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I don't know.

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Maybe it's sexual for you.

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No.

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Okay.

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No, no.

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Okay.

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Look, why would
you want to hurt me?

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I wish I knew.

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That's just, just
the way that I think.

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I try to think of other things.

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And I would never do it.

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I would never do that,

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to anyone.

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I've never done it.

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But I have...

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I've thought about it.

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I've imagined it many times.

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Well, maybe,

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maybe these are primal
thoughts, you know.

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I'm a threat to you.

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How are you a threat to me?

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Well, I'm another man.

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And you're in my house.

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I have something you want.

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You want to take
it away from me.

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Well, what do you have
that I want, Father?

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Absolution.

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Bit of a Catch-22 isn't it?

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Yeah.

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It is.

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You're not gonna be able to
beat forgiveness outta me.

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Maybe you shouldn't
take it too literally.

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I'm plagued by
horrible thoughts.

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That's what I'm telling you.

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Yeah, I understand.

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I wanna beat the traffic
cop, the toll booth taker,

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the construction crew.

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All men?

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No.

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Women too?

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Uh-huh.

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Is it, is that what your
neighbor accused you of?

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Wanting to hurt her?

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Was she right?

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I wanted to kill her.

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Why?

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She had something I wanted.

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Okay, what was it?

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Does it matter?

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Well did you do
something to her?

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No.

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I never act on it, I
just, I just think.

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Okay, you must have
done something, right?

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She didn't read your
thoughts, but she knew.

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I was right next door.

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She saw me looking.

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Like she saw you looking
inappropriately when she

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thought she was alone or what?
- No, she was out on...

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She was out on the
front lawn in the open.

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I'm not a peeping Tom.

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Maybe she got a,
like a bad vibe.

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Bad vibe, huh?

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That sums it up.

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Well, what was the thing?

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What thing?

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That thing that she
had that you wanted.

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She didn't have
anything that I wanted.

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Smith, you just
told me she did.

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She had a daughter.

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That's what you wanted?

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Yes.

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And she knew?

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She was protecting her
daughter when she accused you.

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But I don't act on it.

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How old is the daughter?

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I would never act on it.

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How old is the daughter?

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Does it matter?

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If it's just a thought
it doesn't matter.

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Well, I mean, I
think that it matters

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in determining how
big of a sin it is.

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Oh, so it's a moral
sin to think now?

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Well, no.

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That's not what
I'm saying, okay?

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I'm just, I'm just
trying to help you.

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How can you help me?

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You can absolve me.

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But I can only absolve
you if I know the sin.

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Look, you came here.

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You came here to me and I
am dragging this out of you.

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Your so called confession.

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She's 11 years old.

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Your neighbor accused
you of lusting after

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her 11-year old daughter?

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Did you move away
because she was right?

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How many hail Mary's is that?

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This is a very sinful impulse.

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So, impulse is a sin now.

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Well, this one I'm
gonna go with, yeah.

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What's my penance?

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What do I do?

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What's my penance?

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I don't know but I
don't think that saying

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some hail Mary's is
gonna be the solution.

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It hasn't helped so far.

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I think you
should talk to someone.

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I'm talking, to
God through you.

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Yes, sure and that's
essential to your spiritual

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well-being, but Smith, we're
talking about your mental

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health, your sexual health.

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No.

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I'm not going to
a psychotherapist.

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I think that they can help
you in ways that I can't.

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I can't talk to a
doctor about this.

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Well, why would you be
willing to talk to a priest

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and not a doctor?

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Priests are free.

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I've talked to a
psychiatrist enough.

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They just wanna talk
about behaviors.

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They wanna talk
about how my thoughts

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influence behaviors
but it doesn't.

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You don't think this
influences your behavior?

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I don't do it.

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And are you sure
that you won't?

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Everybody has thoughts.

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Not everybody
has these thoughts.

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Are you sure?

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People come in
here and they tell me

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a lot of things.

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They unburden dark, ugly
parts of themselves,

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but this situation
is not common.

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Mm.

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You're telling me
it's not common.

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You get people that
come in here and say

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I hit my wife, I
lied to my Mother.

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I lied for my husband,
I punched my kid.

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I went too far.

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They tell you what they did.

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They don't tell you
what they thought.

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What about you?

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What about your thoughts?

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I think you know my thoughts.

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I don't know anything
about your thoughts.

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Go see a therapist,
it's not a thought.

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It's a trained response,
it's something you say

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to someone who has a
problem you can't fix.

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But I didn't come
here to get fixed.

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I came here to be absolved.

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You...

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I came here to be absolved
of my unpure thoughts

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and you just keep poking.

273
00:12:57,447 --> 00:12:58,551
You're poking at me,

274
00:12:58,551 --> 00:13:00,068
for the details.

275
00:13:00,068 --> 00:13:01,585
I just want to be forgiven.

276
00:13:01,585 --> 00:13:04,964
You just wanna know
exactly what I'm thinking.

277
00:13:10,516 --> 00:13:13,309
She wears little felt shorts.

278
00:13:14,722 --> 00:13:16,929
Terry cloth shorts, I guess.

279
00:13:16,929 --> 00:13:17,826
Who, the girl?

280
00:13:17,826 --> 00:13:19,826
Jessica, her name is Jessica.

281
00:13:19,826 --> 00:13:22,791
Jess, she wears
terry cloth shorts.

282
00:13:27,309 --> 00:13:28,791
You think that she
dresses provocatively?

283
00:13:28,791 --> 00:13:32,929
No, I don't think she dresses
prov-, she's a little girl.

284
00:13:37,309 --> 00:13:38,309
She plays in the front lawn.

285
00:13:38,309 --> 00:13:39,826
She gets filthy.

286
00:13:39,826 --> 00:13:43,482
Her mother puts her in
these terry cloth shorts.

287
00:13:44,654 --> 00:13:47,344
And they're cheap,
she, she's not a tramp.

288
00:13:47,344 --> 00:13:50,791
She's not a harlot,
she's not a nymphet.

289
00:13:50,791 --> 00:13:52,137
She's a little girl
making mud pies.

290
00:13:52,137 --> 00:13:54,929
She, they don't
have money so she,

291
00:13:54,929 --> 00:13:57,654
she makes pies out
of mud and she puts

292
00:13:57,654 --> 00:14:01,033
them in a toy oven.

293
00:14:01,033 --> 00:14:01,999
She doesn't eat them.

294
00:14:01,999 --> 00:14:02,860
She's not stupid.

295
00:14:02,860 --> 00:14:04,860
She just has...

296
00:14:04,860 --> 00:14:06,516
She has imagination.

297
00:14:08,620 --> 00:14:09,860
She doesn't care.

298
00:14:09,860 --> 00:14:12,344
She doesn't care
if I look at her.

299
00:14:14,722 --> 00:14:17,551
She doesn't care if
she touches herself,

300
00:14:17,551 --> 00:14:21,688
you know, plays with
herself in her shorts.

301
00:14:21,688 --> 00:14:23,275
She used to, she...

302
00:14:25,999 --> 00:14:27,826
She's changing.

303
00:14:29,722 --> 00:14:32,447
That's what I
like, the changing.

304
00:14:34,895 --> 00:14:38,895
She used to not mind
I watched at her play,

305
00:14:38,895 --> 00:14:40,860
neither did her mother.

306
00:14:43,309 --> 00:14:44,860
It's all right to
watch a four-year old

307
00:14:44,860 --> 00:14:46,791
or a six-year old play.

308
00:14:53,240 --> 00:14:54,688
The hair changes.

309
00:14:57,516 --> 00:14:59,378
And her legs, her arms.

310
00:15:02,413 --> 00:15:04,033
It's getting darker.

311
00:15:05,653 --> 00:15:08,378
You can see it
now from far away.

312
00:15:10,378 --> 00:15:12,068
She's gonna be hairy.

313
00:15:14,757 --> 00:15:17,206
I think of taking her inside.

314
00:15:18,309 --> 00:15:22,757
I think she should be had now

315
00:15:22,757 --> 00:15:26,206
before, before she changes.

316
00:15:27,860 --> 00:15:29,929
Before
she grows hair?

317
00:15:29,929 --> 00:15:31,309
Before she grows
self conscious.

318
00:15:31,309 --> 00:15:34,447
Before she doesn't
wanna be looked at.

319
00:15:36,447 --> 00:15:39,619
Before she cares if I watch her

320
00:15:41,275 --> 00:15:43,619
play with herself.

321
00:15:43,619 --> 00:15:47,413
I think
that's happened already.

322
00:15:47,413 --> 00:15:49,550
Yeah, it has.

323
00:15:49,550 --> 00:15:53,447
But I thought,
there's still time.

324
00:15:53,447 --> 00:15:56,550
There's still time
to have her fully.

325
00:15:57,757 --> 00:16:00,826
To be inside her while
she could completely

326
00:16:00,826 --> 00:16:04,653
enjoy it, just let go physically

327
00:16:07,171 --> 00:16:09,240
and feel every sensation.

328
00:16:11,171 --> 00:16:14,102
Not think, does he love me?

329
00:16:15,378 --> 00:16:16,929
Am I worth anything?

330
00:16:16,929 --> 00:16:18,240
Will he call me?

331
00:16:22,516 --> 00:16:24,482
She would just feel me.

332
00:16:26,515 --> 00:16:27,826
Fill up inside.

333
00:16:30,515 --> 00:16:33,584
I would touch every
inch of her skin.

334
00:16:35,929 --> 00:16:37,344
And I wouldn't have to
worry about her thinking

335
00:16:37,344 --> 00:16:39,447
those thoughts, you know.

336
00:16:42,033 --> 00:16:44,999
She would be afraid.

337
00:16:44,999 --> 00:16:46,826
No, no.

338
00:16:48,378 --> 00:16:50,171
Well, maybe she wouldn't
be in your fantasy,

339
00:16:50,171 --> 00:16:51,653
but in real life she would be.

340
00:16:51,653 --> 00:16:52,964
She would be afraid.

341
00:16:52,964 --> 00:16:53,999
Well, it wouldn't
happen in real life,

342
00:16:53,999 --> 00:16:55,860
so real life doesn't matter.

343
00:16:55,860 --> 00:16:58,275
But you thought that it
might happen in real life.

344
00:16:58,275 --> 00:17:00,309
- No.
- You thought it might happen

345
00:17:00,309 --> 00:17:01,413
enough in real life
that you're here

346
00:17:01,413 --> 00:17:02,550
and you're confessing.

347
00:17:02,550 --> 00:17:03,515
No, her mother
thought it might happen

348
00:17:03,515 --> 00:17:04,860
in real life, not me.

349
00:17:04,860 --> 00:17:05,929
And her mother
got that from what,

350
00:17:05,929 --> 00:17:07,240
reading your thoughts?

351
00:17:07,240 --> 00:17:08,481
Yeah, mostly.

352
00:17:10,584 --> 00:17:11,413
Mostly.

353
00:17:12,895 --> 00:17:13,722
What else?

354
00:17:13,722 --> 00:17:14,550
Nothing.

355
00:17:16,584 --> 00:17:19,999
I mean, she likes me, Jess.

356
00:17:19,999 --> 00:17:24,515
She's, she's always known me.

357
00:17:24,515 --> 00:17:25,688
I'm nice to her.

358
00:17:25,688 --> 00:17:29,171
Nicer than that fucking
had of a mother.

359
00:17:29,171 --> 00:17:33,068
And so sometimes she
hugs me and her mother

360
00:17:33,068 --> 00:17:34,584
doesn't like it.

361
00:17:34,584 --> 00:17:36,413
Her mother doesn't like
when you hug her daughter.

362
00:17:36,413 --> 00:17:39,515
Her mother doesn't like
when her daughter hugs me.

363
00:17:39,515 --> 00:17:42,102
I never instigated, ever.

364
00:17:42,102 --> 00:17:46,722
I mean, you know,
maybe sometimes I
might put my hands out

365
00:17:46,722 --> 00:17:49,068
but she's a real hugger.

366
00:17:49,068 --> 00:17:50,240
You're not understanding.

367
00:17:50,240 --> 00:17:51,791
Her mother doesn't
like the way that you--

368
00:17:51,791 --> 00:17:56,206
Her mother doesn't
like how long I hold her.

369
00:17:56,206 --> 00:17:58,757
Not the way, how long.

370
00:17:58,757 --> 00:18:00,895
She doesn't like my face.

371
00:18:03,929 --> 00:18:06,929
She says that I make
a face when we hug.

372
00:18:06,929 --> 00:18:08,378
I close my eyes.

373
00:18:08,378 --> 00:18:09,584
There's no face.

374
00:18:12,757 --> 00:18:16,102
She says I look relieved
during the hugs.

375
00:18:20,550 --> 00:18:22,137
This is a disorder.

376
00:18:22,137 --> 00:18:23,999
Hugging is a disorder now.

377
00:18:23,999 --> 00:18:25,240
This is what we've come to.

378
00:18:25,240 --> 00:18:28,033
No, your thoughts
are a disorder.

379
00:18:29,619 --> 00:18:34,275
My thoughts would be a
disorder if I acted on them.

380
00:18:34,275 --> 00:18:38,068
Thinking those thoughts,
having them is a sin.

381
00:18:39,757 --> 00:18:42,791
I don't think that
I can absolve you of this.

382
00:18:42,791 --> 00:18:45,446
Your spirit is not going
to be healed as long

383
00:18:45,446 --> 00:18:46,653
as your mind is sick.

384
00:18:46,653 --> 00:18:47,999
What the fuck?

385
00:18:51,275 --> 00:18:54,344
There, absolve me of that.

386
00:18:54,344 --> 00:18:57,895
Yeah, I do not swear and
I will ask forgiveness

387
00:18:57,895 --> 00:19:01,309
for that, that you can absolve.

388
00:19:01,309 --> 00:19:02,826
[Priest It's not Enough.

389
00:19:02,826 --> 00:19:04,377
Not for me to
forgive you of this.

390
00:19:04,377 --> 00:19:07,309
You need to go and seek some
help to conquer your demon.

391
00:19:07,309 --> 00:19:09,688
You cannot tell me that
my faith is not enough

392
00:19:09,688 --> 00:19:12,344
to guide me and to help me.

393
00:19:12,344 --> 00:19:13,171
Your faith--

394
00:19:13,171 --> 00:19:14,240
You can do your job.

395
00:19:14,240 --> 00:19:15,688
- Your faith.
- Do you job.

396
00:19:15,688 --> 00:19:17,102
Your faith is an important
part of your healing

397
00:19:17,102 --> 00:19:19,068
process but my job is to
counsel you on your spiritual

398
00:19:19,068 --> 00:19:21,895
well-being, that's
what I'm doing.

399
00:19:24,343 --> 00:19:25,757
You need to forgive me.

400
00:19:25,757 --> 00:19:28,826
Look, Smith, you can't
just walk into a confessional

401
00:19:28,826 --> 00:19:30,929
and tell me that you're
a pedophile and then

402
00:19:30,929 --> 00:19:32,688
bada boom, God's just
going to forgive you.

403
00:19:32,688 --> 00:19:35,860
Okay, that's not the
way that it works.

404
00:19:35,860 --> 00:19:37,860
It does work that way.

405
00:19:39,722 --> 00:19:42,377
You think this is my first
kick at the can, Father?

406
00:19:42,377 --> 00:19:44,481
No, it does work that way.

407
00:19:44,481 --> 00:19:47,102
You do penance, you're forgiven.

408
00:19:49,102 --> 00:19:52,033
Even if you've done something,
which I have not done.

409
00:19:52,033 --> 00:19:53,033
No, you did.

410
00:19:53,033 --> 00:19:54,308
You did do something.
- No.

411
00:19:54,308 --> 00:19:55,068
- You did, you touched her.
- I did not.

412
00:19:55,068 --> 00:19:56,584
I have not touched her.

413
00:19:56,584 --> 00:20:00,240
If you touched her, you
hugged her, you touched her.

414
00:20:00,240 --> 00:20:01,999
No, she touched me.

415
00:20:03,688 --> 00:20:04,515
She did.

416
00:20:06,964 --> 00:20:11,102
She felt me, excited.

417
00:20:13,584 --> 00:20:17,206
And she touched me there.

418
00:20:17,206 --> 00:20:19,343
And her mother saw that.

419
00:20:22,688 --> 00:20:24,826
Her mother saw my face.

420
00:20:32,515 --> 00:20:35,515
Well, you were
right to move away.

421
00:20:35,515 --> 00:20:36,964
That's something.

422
00:20:40,412 --> 00:20:43,171
Now you wish to
come back to God.

423
00:20:47,515 --> 00:20:49,206
I never left God.

424
00:20:50,860 --> 00:20:52,515
God is why I'm here.

425
00:20:54,377 --> 00:20:56,343
God is why I moved here.

426
00:20:58,722 --> 00:21:02,171
God is why I don't do
any of these things.

427
00:21:05,757 --> 00:21:07,688
An act of contrition.

428
00:21:09,412 --> 00:21:10,757
Repeat after me.

429
00:21:12,137 --> 00:21:13,068
Oh my, God.

430
00:21:13,964 --> 00:21:15,446
Oh my, God.

431
00:21:15,446 --> 00:21:19,446
I am heartily sorry
for having offended thee.

432
00:21:19,446 --> 00:21:22,137
And I detest my sins.

433
00:21:22,137 --> 00:21:23,412
Cause I fear the loss
of Heaven and I dread

434
00:21:23,412 --> 00:21:24,619
the pains of hell.

435
00:21:24,619 --> 00:21:28,619
Cause I fear the loss
of Heaven and I dread

436
00:21:28,619 --> 00:21:30,895
the pains of hell.

437
00:21:30,895 --> 00:21:36,239
And mostly I'm sorry for
having offended you, my God.

438
00:21:36,239 --> 00:21:37,584
You're so good.

439
00:21:38,860 --> 00:21:40,102
You're so good.

440
00:21:40,102 --> 00:21:42,550
And deserving
of all of my love.

441
00:21:42,550 --> 00:21:44,895
With the help of your grace.

442
00:21:44,895 --> 00:21:47,619
I resolved to confess my sins.

443
00:21:47,619 --> 00:21:49,308
To do penance.

444
00:21:49,308 --> 00:21:51,722
And to amend my life.

445
00:21:51,722 --> 00:21:53,584
Amen.

446
00:21:55,239 --> 00:21:58,068
I still want you
to see a doctor.

447
00:21:59,929 --> 00:22:03,343
God's not going to
let me hurt anybody.

448
00:22:06,619 --> 00:22:10,860
May the Lord, Jesus Christ
bless and absolve you.

449
00:22:10,860 --> 00:22:13,619
And by his authority,
I absolve you of every

450
00:22:13,619 --> 00:22:16,722
bond of excommunication
and interdict so far

451
00:22:16,722 --> 00:22:20,999
as my power allows and
your needs require.

452
00:22:20,999 --> 00:22:23,170
There upon I absolve
you of your sins,

453
00:22:23,170 --> 00:22:25,515
in the name of the
Father, and of the Son,

454
00:22:25,515 --> 00:22:27,412
and of the Holy Spirit.

455
00:22:58,033 --> 00:23:01,722
In 1965, my basketball
team won the New York...

456
00:23:01,722 --> 00:23:06,068
♪ Six months is far
too long to sleep

457
00:23:06,068 --> 00:23:08,757
♪ Though peacefully

458
00:23:08,757 --> 00:23:11,068
♪ Little bird

459
00:23:11,068 --> 00:23:14,102
♪ I ran to check on every breath

460
00:23:14,102 --> 00:23:16,757
♪ And though the rise
and fall had stopped

461
00:23:16,757 --> 00:23:20,895
♪ And almost broke
those hollow bones

462
00:23:21,929 --> 00:23:25,068
♪ I found you keening

463
00:23:26,653 --> 00:23:28,274
Goodnight.

464
00:23:28,274 --> 00:23:30,929
Sorry, didn't mean to scare you.

465
00:23:39,584 --> 00:23:42,999
♪ Make yourself fall
down from the ground

466
00:23:42,999 --> 00:23:46,033
♪ From the floor

467
00:23:46,033 --> 00:23:48,377
♪ Little bird

468
00:23:48,377 --> 00:23:49,584
♪ Okay

469
00:23:49,584 --> 00:23:52,033
♪ Little bird there is a word

470
00:23:52,033 --> 00:23:54,757
♪ To help you out
from underneath

471
00:23:54,757 --> 00:23:57,412
♪ It is a warning

472
00:23:57,412 --> 00:23:59,895
♪ Little bird

473
00:23:59,895 --> 00:24:02,791
♪ It is a warning

474
00:24:03,722 --> 00:24:05,757
♪ Warning

475
00:24:05,757 --> 00:24:09,067
♪ It is a warning

476
00:24:09,067 --> 00:24:11,308
♪ Warning

477
00:24:11,308 --> 00:24:14,239
♪ It is a warning

478
00:24:14,239 --> 00:24:16,446
♪ Warning

479
00:24:16,446 --> 00:24:19,653
♪ It is a warning

480
00:24:19,653 --> 00:24:23,584
♪ Warning

481
00:24:26,688 --> 00:24:28,619
Next
time on Forgive Me.

482
00:24:28,619 --> 00:24:29,826
The point of being
forgiven by God

483
00:24:29,826 --> 00:24:32,653
is so that you can
forgive yourself.

484
00:24:32,653 --> 00:24:36,101
Is that why I'm here,
to forgive myself?

485
00:24:37,239 --> 00:24:40,722
Are you
afraid of going to hell?

486
00:24:41,722 --> 00:24:42,964
I don't know.

487
00:24:44,999 --> 00:24:49,136
But, I am here to
forgive myself.

488
00:24:50,791 --> 00:24:52,722
I think you''re right.

489
00:24:52,722 --> 00:24:54,964
This is my friend, Noel.

490
00:24:54,964 --> 00:24:56,239
Hi.

491
00:24:56,239 --> 00:24:58,515
I just need to know
what my options are.

492
00:24:58,515 --> 00:25:01,619
I need to know if
I have any options.